If I could have any super power, I think I wouldn't mind the ability to create time. It's terribly cliche, I realize, to point out that there simply aren't enough hours in the day to get everything done, but it's currently something I find myself thinking about at the end of every day. As I've started to fall into a new routine, I've found myself missing elements of my old, pre-move-back-to-New Mexico one. Above all else, I've come to realize I am a creature of habit. The things I'm missing have almost nothing to do with geography (though I do miss the proximity to the ocean). Rather, it's all about the day to day.
I miss my old gym routine. I used to have a regular set of classes I attended, usually every Monday and Wednesday, and some Fridays. It balanced out my work life nicely.
I miss my friends a great deal. Fortunately, as my good friend Nico likes to remind me all the time, we live in the future. Keeping in touch with friends is a snap. Texting, email, video chat, phone calls... All are good ways to keep up with the people who matter. The things that I miss? Hanging out for dinner, watching RuPaul's Drag Race, cooking up a storm.
My new life, so far, is amazing. I wake up every day next to the man of my dreams. I have a job that I love, and enjoy the work I do. The "what" of my life right now is something I've worked very hard to reach. Now I just have to get the hang of the "how".
The mistake I seem to be making is that I'm not in the same place I used to be. I keep looking for something to replace what I used to have. I crave that familiarity. And even though I know it, I still find myself resisting the thought that I have to accept that it won't be the same, and that's perfectly okay.
I knew plenty of change would hit me with all this, I just didn't think I would find it so hard to let the change fully engulf me.