It is now almost four months since I left my job. In that time, I have found myself busy with new endeavors, but also enjoying life in a way I had forgotten I could. The change has been a healthy one for me both professionally and personally.
As I have been making my way through this year, I have found myself letting go of things past and focusing more on what I want in my life now. I have been losing weight, and so have been downsizing my wardrobe, and wanting to downsize the amount of things in my life generally. My wonderful sister-in-law recently pointed me to a book called The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up, and I am now 60 pages in and completely riveted. A portion I read just now resonated with me intensely:
As someone who holds onto things, this a powerful idea. I have come to realize that not only do I hold on to physical things, but I also cling to experiences. I realize now that I harbored the difficulties I experienced in my work life to a greater degree than I had thought, and that there really is something good I took away from that experience. I learned where I worked well and where I didn't, and I learned how to be more honest with myself about what works for me and what doesn't. Learning that has lead me to where I am now, with a more balanced juxtaposition working in two fields I love equally.
It was by no means an ideal way to get here, but I feel all the more grateful to be here now, and to have more confidence in pursuing what makes me happy.